I Know - I Think

I was seven years old.I'm not going to harp on about this, only to say
The teacher began to get cross.that if we live our entire lives based on decisions
'Robert, write down what's on the board or go tomade by seven year olds, we wouldn't get very
the back of the class and stay there until youfar. Yet we do this every day, and in many ways
have."we don't get very far.
When you're seven you don't master theThis is a challenge I know, and it can be applied to
language, especially when you've been singled outany part of life. Start small.
in front of the class and told off.Look at all those beliefs, those 'I know best
Ten minutes later I still hadn't written anything, sobecause I'm experienced' bits of knowledge about
off to the back of the class I went until an hourour life and the world. All learned by experience,
after all the other kids had gone home.the news, other peoples opinions, probably based
My teacher, a kindly soul really who I'm sure juston decisions they made when they were seven
wanted the best for me, waited behind as wellyears old too!
and encouraged me to write. "You're not goingI'm not saying they're wrong, nor right. Just that
home until you've finished; I can wait all night."the chances are they don't apply anymore, yet
"I cant" was all I could blurt out.we lives our lives by these decisions.
She should have known. I had new glasses, aYears after I'd allegedly grown up I began writing
patch over my 'good eye' and 'special drops' inagain. Now I make my living our of writing, and
the other, to stop it being 'lazy'.running creative writing workshops and have
I don't know how that was supposed to work,written opinion columns in newspapers for more
but I did know I was virtually blind. All faces werethan ten years.
blurs, and even at the front of the class theI even started my own newspaper, so I'd have
blackboard mingled with the wall and stayed fuzzysomething fun to read.
with everything else.Here's a few I've heard recently. I wonder if
If there'd been nothing written on the board, Ithey're really true:o "I don't like heights."o "I don't
wouldn't have known.like fruit."o "I'm scared of monkey's." (!)o "Too
I eventually went home, and in my seven yearmany cooks spoil the broth."o "I've never been
old head made an important decision.able to do maths."o "I have never known how to
I didn't like writing. More than that, I COULDN'Tiron clothes, and I'm too old to learn now." (37)o
write! And I had all that evidence to back my new"I'll always be broke. I always have been."o "I don't
story up, and would spend many years collectingdrink water, it's bad for me."
more.Add your own to the list and have a closer look.
Based on a decision made by a confused half blindWhat if none of what we believe is really true?
seven year old whose eyes quickly improved, IOne way to find out is to do all the things we say
told everyone who would listen that I hatedwe can't and see how we get on. Nothing at all to
writing. It was strange, because I had a dad wholose, and if it has anything to do with writing, art,
was a journalist and storyteller, and Grandfathercreativity in any form, think of all the joy that
who was an editor for the Llanelli Star in Southawaits. Not just for you, but the rest of us as
Wales. He was a Welsh Bard, I said "I cant writewell.
for toffee!"